Reattaching self-worth to myself

I feel this incredible shame whenever I'm attracted to someone and like in every interaction we have I'm making so many mistakes and acting a fool. Logically I know that it's completely normal to feel attraction, I'm human, I'm a sexual reproductive being. In the past I've just acted on attraction like I had to sleep with or be with every person that looks good. Which is totally unrealistic. I know.
So now attraction comes with so many emotions. I'm so fearful of rejection that I start feeling rejected right away. Like it's already happened. So much discomfort. This is so awkward to write about too. I'm so uncomfortable right now and I want to stop but I'm pushing through because I seek relief.
I've been meditating on separating myself-worth from the people I'm attracted to. I had a visualization last night where I lifted the hood of my brain and rolled in, like under a car, and pulled the hose out that connected my self-worth to people I find attractive. My self-worth belongs to me and I need it to be attached to things I have control over, which is not other people.
I also imagined myself I'm in a glass bubble, and people I'm attracted to are on the outside. Inside the glass bubble is what I do have control over: my behaviour, allowing myself to feel my emotions without dominating or controlling my behaviour, my integrity, my pleasure. Ooo, I like that last one. My pleasure is in my control.
It's true because even doing something like remember and working towards solidifying a new concept of where my self-worth is fuelled, brings me so much pleasure. Mmmmmm yeah. I love taking charge of my self-worth baby. So hot, so delicious. So sexy!!!! :) :)
I deserve to own it. It is mine after all and I don't want some stranger's pretty face telling me if I can love myself or not, only my pretty face. So I woke up today reminding myself of my new lifestyle choice, praising myself for a job well done and fuelling my own self-worth. Mmmm honey, you are incredible. Mmmhmmm, you're so intelligent and you're doing such a good job at school. You've got such a great system for writing papers, a little each day, soaking in the learning, really becoming who you want to be and letting go of baggage. You don't need perfection, it's all about the journey honey. You deserve love, you deserve care. Mmmm, this bed is so comfy and you make it that way for yourself because you deserve to be cozy a.f. You are a sensual goddess baby!!!
*Warm Heart Fuzzies Ensue*